Welcome to the Anxious Author's Blog

 Well, Souls, here we go again. 

I'm not too good at this regular blogging thing, but I came up with a theme and really want to give it a shot. Honestly, I'm getting tired of seeing my old blogs pop up on Goodreads and Amazon. Figured it was time for something new. So, welcome to The Anxious Author's Blog. 

This is a place where I can explore with you what it is like to be an author with anxiety and to share the books I review, as well as the books I publish. It's my hope that this blog will reach someone who needs to hear what I have to say. I think too many of us suffer in silence. I know I did, for way too long, and now I have a hard time watching my sister go through the same thing. It's hard to hold my tongue sometimes when she has anxiety attacks and still refuses to speak to a doctor, but it's something I'm working on. 

Many people describe anxiety as a monster but to me, it's more like an unwelcome house guest. My anxiety is part of me. She is me and for the longest time, I thought I was her. She's like an evil twin that I was born with or a broken record that I can't take off the player. Sometimes she gets the best of me. Other times I win. 

I used to use writing to quiet my anxiety and I used my creativity as an excuse not to get on meds. I was worried that taking medication would make me less creative. It's made me more focused though. When I'm writing an intense scene, I no longer have to walk away from the computer because my heart feels like it's going to explode and kill me. I can type without stopping, without panic attacks. It's been amazing. 

Like I said, though, it took me a long time to get to the point where I was okay with taking medication. So, I understand why people don't want it. Why you might not want it. Your reasons are valid. I'm not here to debate the pros and cons of Paxil, however, I'm here to tell you what it's like to be part of the author world while having anxiety. I'm here to express my ideas, my opinions, and share literature with you all. If that's something you think you might be interested in, go ahead and subscribe. I promise you'll feel like family here. 

This is me:

I am a 29-year-old fantasy author who is hypoglycemic, has anxiety, and whose right leg likes to play dead occasionally. I am creative. I love cacti, crystals, windchimes, and yoga. My favorite video games are Dragon Age and Sims. I have an Emotional Support Animal who is a black cat named Spook Noir Kitka. Spook because he's a black cat, Noir because of Cat Noir, and Kitka because of Catwoman. 

Spook is a feisty thing. He likes his mouse and bird toys. He is a picky eater and does not like chicken. He prefers salmon. He wants to go outside 24/7 but hates it once he's out there. He gets spooked easily by leaves and things. He's been my lifesaver. I love him. 

I've published 7, almost 8, books and most of them are fantasy. I specialize in Young Adult Fantasy but have recently branched out to Children's Fantasy. 

I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you on here and sharing my experiences with you. 

Welcome to the blog, souls.